Distraction #1

Well not even one day in and I managed to distract myself for a day and a half! I swear that has got to be a record somewhere. OK, OK, OK maybe my record, but who's care it's mine! :) This distraction came in the form of BOYS! ....ugh I had originally outlined this for a much later post, but since it peeked its ugly little head out here we go.

There are 4 different boys drifting through my life right now and the minute one of them phones I have this nasty little habit of dropping everything and running, which frustrates me. One of the boys called, made the plans, I rearranged my schedule (OK truthfully, cancelled going to the gym) and then while he is now 45 mins late I phone, he cancels. I was SUPER not so happy. This is just a small example of how 3 of these 4 boys treat me, yes they all have a tendency to do the same thing. Wanna know what my automatic response is? I feel sorry for myself and turn to comforting myself with the one thing I know...food. Thanks to this wonderful blog I was able to interrupt this pattern a lot quicker than normal. At this point you may be asking yourself "Day and a half is quick?" Yes, for me this is a lot quicker than normal, don't judge, moving along...

"Balance is not allowing anyone to love you anyless than you love yourself"

~Eat, Pray, Love (Movie)~

What I realized was this, they treat me how I treat myself. I don't think my time is all that important, so why would they? I don't say that when they do that it really pisses me off, I sit and stew so of course they think it is OK to do it again and again. My intention here was to be the carefree, go with the flow girl, but as a dear friend pointed out I've gotten carefree, go with the flow girl confused with disrespectful boy. Secondly, these are soooooo NOT the kind of boys that deserve to be anywhere around me. In short, it was a polite smack upside the head/reminder about my self-worth. I am better than this and I deserve better than this! Know your worth, know your value, know how rare and precious you are.

So..... back on track!

OK so that may have been the long winded way around to the point, but such is life, my blog, my rambling :)