There are times when you start to make some really big decisions in your life and you begin to realize how deep those previous choices have run. I recently stripped myself bare of a fair chunk of things I used to believe in and hold as personal truths. Being stripped of these, is not a bad thing, but it leaves you feeling like an old house that has been stripped, left with only its frame. For many, many years you paint over colors, put up wall paper, paint over that, rip up the floor and put down laminate, not real hard wood, but it will do. Sooner or later you get so tired and stuck in a rut you bring in a demo crew and all that’s left standing is the foundation and the frame. Leaving you feeling naked and vulnerable to the elements of the world, but one the other hand completely excited about the new house you get to build and live in for years and years to come.
Being naked and vulnerable is kind of scary because you’re first instinct is to rush in with old habits and ways of operating to protect yourself, but you try every time to remember that it’s those old habits and old thought patterns that got you here and because you are hell bend on not putting up the same ol’ ugly wallpaper you try your hardest to get comfortable being naked. Each day taking one step forward and try with all your might to re-build a house that can withstand any earthquake, flood, tornado or hurricane that the universe can throw at it.
Rebuilding one piece of plywood at a time, one piece of drywall at a time, one can of primer at a time, one can of beautiful brightly colored paint at a time because this is your chance to paint the mosaic you’ve always wanted to; your chance to rebuild your house on your own terms, no one else’s. Your strength to take on such a large renovation comes from having such a strong foundation. My foundation consists of the raw determination that is inside of me to never settle, never give up, to always go kicking and screaming. It is then reinforced with the strength of my friends and family who are always right there to help with the hard parts.
When was the last time you were comfortable being naked?
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